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Addiction Recovery – Confidence

Hope for the journey
Addiction Recovery

I believe you would agree with me; our biggest problem in addiction recovery was the inability to stop using compulsively. Sadly the problem is never solved permanently, but it is overcome on a day-to-day basis. As the days of sobriety stack up, we grow in confidence. Confidence is the knowledge that however tough life gets, we have tools and resources for dealing with it. Confidence is believing in ourselves as children of God and people of value. Confidence is the willingness to give what we have, with the faith that our gifts are needed and acceptable.
When we have confidence in God and in ourselves, we are willing to try even though we may fail. If we fail, we are willing to try again. Since our will and our lives are turned over to God, we have confidence that everything eventually works out for our good.


~ Food for Thought, Hazelden

Addiction Takes Us to a Place…

The Freedom to Surrender:

Addiction takes us to a place where we do what we do not want to do. Self-will, determination, pride, and ego kick in as over and over we repeat the pattern of obsession.

As time goes on shame, guilt, depression, and desolation cloak our being like a shroud.  Exhausted and defeated, we try to find the will to go on. If left to go on long enough, it takes us to place where we would rather die than live. We can’t live with the substance, yet we can’t live without it either.  We are in bondage to the stronghold of addiction.


The Hope is there is a Spiritual solution!  (Romans 7:15-20) Paul talks about doing exactly what he sets his mind not to do.  I don’t know whether his issue was addiction, but he certainly struggled with the very thing addiction did in my life.  Verse 20 describes it this way, “It is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me” (NKJV).

Paul found hope in Christ.  He found hope in the paradox of surrender.  Surrender is a process of death and rebirth.  Death to the sin by admitting powerlessness and allowing God to make us new.  In (Romans 8:1) Paul says, “There is now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit” (NKJV). Going to verse 5 it explains the ACTION of surrender “For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit.”


I struggled for quite some time with surrender.  It felt like giving up, and I was no quitter!  I also didn’t like feeling victimized by this substance that had complete control over me.  Surrender meant acknowledging that. That was scary. It was not until I became WILLING to surrender that things began to change.  I asked God to help me be willing to surrender.  I needed help from Him to face my fears.  Things began to change.


The joy of recovery is that we grow in a new relationship with God as we daily surrender our will to Him.  He directs and guides us to the level we are willing to let Him. ~ Terri


One of the basic principles in recovery is to learn to be Open.  We are told in early recovery that everything needs to change.  It begins with our thinking: being open, honest, and willing to change.
Putting this principle into action is where the rubber meets the road.
I cannot act in a manner of open-mindedness if I am unable or unwilling to trust God.  I will be blind to seeing and deaf to hearing that which is before me.  We are also cut off from God and what He has for us when we are unable to set aside preconceived notions and expectations of others and outcomes.  The act of trusting requires vulnerability and humility before God. If we perceive Him as unloving, uncaring, and judgmental, the act of trust becomes nearly impossible.
How do you view Him today?
~ Terri Peterson


There is a misguided notion that God’s grace increases as our faith matures. If that were accurate…we would be earning His blessings through our good works. The truth is, spiritual growth broadens our capacity to recognize and enjoy God’s grace in our lives. May this poem from one who has surrendered to God’s grace bless you!




How am I ever going to stop, I don’t know what to do.

I think I can do it this time, but I really have no clue.

Did it again, can’t be helped, so ashamed I could cry.

I really have to stop living, this terrible, terrible lie.


I am alone, so afraid, it seems like nobody is there,

I wish there was someone to help me, I really want to share.

Where to start, how to go, the darkness is closing in!

Maybe it is time to pray, it feels like it’s the end.


Is it too late, will it do any good, he doesn’t help people like me.

There is nothing else for me to do, that I can plainly see.

I close my eyes, clear my mind and I begin to pray.

God please forgive me, as I have lost my way.


Slowly a tear comes to my eye, I feel a presence here.

God’s Grace is filling up my heart, it now seems very clear.

“Come back to me my child; return, surrender, be free.”

“When you accept my grace, all you need is me.”


Will you be with me, on my path as I turn my life around?

How will I know you will be there, if I stumble and fall on the ground?

“Look at everything that you’ve done, everything you have put yourself through.”

“Is there any doubt that you are still on earth, because of how much I have always loved you?”


Now I feel it, it must be true, why is it so hard to see?

I am only here by the Grace of God; it is his Grace that has blessed me.

Every day, good or bad, I stop and say a prayer.

God’s Grace is always with me and I have nothing left to fear.


~ Anonymous


Recovery wheel

Problems come.  In waves that roll over us, tossing and turning our emotions, faith, and confidence.  At least that is how it seems for me.

What is different for me in Recovery is that the problems no longer define who I am.  The problems no longer rob me of confidence for very long.

This is because in Recovery I have an internal process that is separate from the externals.  This process is one of Surrender, Gratitude, Honesty, Humility, Forgiveness, and Faith.  This frees me from the bondage of hopelessness, fear, and despair.  Problems are external.  They will always be in my life.  How I respond to these problems is now different because the external situations no longer have to permeate my soul.

Terri Peterson

Recovery Principle: Surrender

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In recovery, I choose to let God fight for me.  I will let God find the solutions.  Now I feel my feelings: fear, restlessness, even discouragement.  The uncomfortable feelings will fade to hope, because God is hope.  He knows how to comfort, fix, and provide.  I can trust Him.

Terri Peterson


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Paradoxes . . .

In recovery there are some surprising paradoxes. When we admit that we are

powerless, we can receive Power.

The key to these paradoxes is our willingness to believe in God. By ourselves, we

are weak and ineffectual. However, when we cooperate with the will of God, our

potential is limitless.

May we accept the paradoxes, even though we do not understand.

Mary Z.

Principles for Living



These 12 principles for living are vital in addiction recovery, but they are an effective lifestyle tool for anyone.  By practicing these principles and listening carefully to our hearts, we encounter a basic truth: Any progress we make on our journey to wholeness and freedom is an absolute gift from God.

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